I saw my GP today to talk about new medication. One of the things he asked was what support did I have, my support network?.
I wasn’t feeling sorry for myself when I said this but my answer was ‘I don’t have one ‘ ! Maybe that’s why I’m struggling with life at the moment, I don’t have the support I need to keep me well and on track.
Do we need a big support network or just a few good friends and family?
How do we create a network if we don’t have one ? How do we get the people to supports us and us them ?
What do we do when we are not disabled enough to get help but not able enough to cope alone ?
Hope you all have a good network x
It’s hard when you have depression to like yourself let alone love yourself i hear you say. I agree which is why we have to start small.
What a difference a few weeks can make.
I have had a few more good days than bad. The anxiety is still there, the voices in my head telling me I’m worthless are still there, still telling me that I’m not good.
I have started councilling which is starting to help but it means revisiting events in my past that have caused much pain in the past and I had pushed to the back of my memory in the hope of I forgot about them they would go away. They don’t and they have a knock on effect on how we deal with current problems.
I read something today it said ‘ Living with Anxiety is like being followed by a voice. That knows all your insecurities and uses them against you. It gets to the point that it’s the loudest voice in the room. It’s the only one you can hear’. This is a really great explanation!!!
After feeling pretty wobbly for a few weeks now about life and directions and how I’m coping with it.
I have just had my second councilling session yesterday so have woken up more determined to get the depression and anxiety under control. I just have to Remember how far I’ve come already and how capable I am of achieving things I have been in the past when i put my mind to it.
Don’t get me wrong I have a long way to go but baby steps forward and I will have come a long way without realising it.
Self doubt is the biggest killer of dreams. If you don’t believe in yourself, no one else will!
Today will be awesome!
Have a great Tuesday everyone!