In it for the long haul

If we only focus on our destination the end will always seems a long way off. Stepping stones are what gets us to where we are going. Rewards are good for the soul. Breaking things down into manageable targets and rewarding yourself for achieving them keeps you on track.

If your only focus is the destination ( whatever that is) will make you feel like you will never achieve it.

Small achievable targets will keep you on track. People rarely FAIL they simply stop trying. Learning is a step by step process. We often get distracted and don’t take the next step, we need to keep moving forward to achieve your goals.


The Universe at work

Sometime the universe steps in to help you just have to listen. For me it has been a picture of a book and a bagel on a Facebook group that lend to a conversation to make me sit up and take notice. All I have had to do is change my mind set!!

You have to set the intention for your life and stop letting life happen to you. I do this now by changing my view of my life and each day. I used to wake up and think this is another day ‘I HAVE TO GET THROUGH’. I now get up and open my journal and put the date and write ‘TODAY IS A GOOD DAY’ i have then set my intention for the day.

At the end of the day I write in my journal my gratitude’s for that day because even if the day had not been all good there is always something good in every day.

A blast from the past

I remember all many years ago being told I have fibromyalgia being handed a leaflet and sent on my way. Still not sure what they were saying I had. Although after years of not knowing what it was I know had a name a lable for it.
They started me on pain medication and I had side effect to which they gave me other medication. I remember thinking there has got to be another way but pain consumed my life and I took the pills and had to keep increasing them.
I started to consider the though that food can heal me.

I had let myself become my disease I spent all my time looking up a and reading about symptoms that I could see nothing else in my life. I started slowly doing a few steps on the treadmill as I didn’t then have to work out the half way point to insure I could get home and each time did a little more and with the encouragement of my now ex started eating better and doing more exercise.
I have more recently battle and for the most part won my battle with depression, anxiety and panic attacks to which they wanted to give me yet more medication I have very bad side effects these were some of the worst days of my life but again my thoughts wandered to can food heal me ? Can I improve my health by what I put into it ?

I start to consider that this is a continuous process and I had been well and the hit road bumps and lost sight of what made me and keeps me well. I need to keep up with my list of things that keep me well.

More trials and tribulations

So I currently have a suspected fractured ankle. Getting around is hard cant use the crutches as arm is still a problem.

Currently feel like i’m spiraling out of control when I think I have hit rock bottom I just keep falling. My support network if fast failing apart and not sure how to get more support or where to start.

Today after a bad few days emotionally. I am off to my hospital appointment for my ankle. I’m feed up already and its only been two weeks.


Entering Year 2

I have been through so much in the past 18 months, its now 1 year since i spoke to 2 of my children. For what ever reason ( and only they Know what it is) they seem to have been unable to cope with my depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I don’t hold any anger toward them but have had to except the apology that i will never receive and more forward with my life.

I started year 2 with a visit to London and went to Tower Bridge and walked and laid on the glass floor. This is an amazing achievement that my ex helped me to accomplish. This was the amazing view down onto the bridge.



Holiday recovery

2″After being away for 11 days I’m feeling a little worn out, recovery time begins. I need to make sure I take the time I need to heal and get back to 100%. This has been made much better by my new diet and clean eating.

Need to have a few slow days except my dog is unwell. He is stressed and his epilepsy is playing up.

I’m trying to grow as a person so today’s quote is ” I do something new or at least different every day”.

I will be back in a few days

Onward and upwards !!!!!!!!!!!

Onward and upwards

May is here its the start of a new month and I am focusing on personal development. My new books have arrived and I’m getting to work.

I have been on and listening to Tony Robbins a very positive man, also listen and watching Lisa Nichols. I have stopped watching the news, watching pointless TV programs and am putting that time in to growing not just existing.

I’m done with just getting through each day, I’m going to make each day count. I’m going to keep moving forward because no matter what is in the past I’m not living there anymore.

Onward and upwards it is !!!!