Its been a hard few weeks but I am having to change my outlook on life !
I have stopped asking why are there people treating me this way and started to ask myself What can I learn from the way i’m being treated.
I cant change the way these people are being but I can change the way I react to the treatment.
I have made a decision that this is a new chapter of my life and I am done with feeling sorry for myself. That’s not to say i’m not going to have bad days (because i’m sure I will, but i’m not going to get stuck in the poor me mind set).
I’m still finding life hard and taking one day at a time.
I read this today and agree wholeheartedly:
The brave may not live forever, but the cautious don’t live at all. – Ashley L.
So with each new day I will get stronger in some way.
When we think of doing something new does the fear of failing stop us from taking that first step to a new life or experience.
We stop our self’s from making choices because of fear. But what is it we fear ???
Do we fear that things will not go the way we want or that they will.
“Only Thing We Have to Fear Is Fear Itself”: FDR’s First Inaugural Address. Franklin D. Roosevelt had campaigned against Herbert Hoover in the 1932 presidential election by saying as little as possible about what he might do if elected. http://historymatters.gmu.edu/d/5057/
How very true but it keeps us stuck where we are because of the fear.
FEAR has two meanings: ‘Forget Everything And Run’ or ‘ Face Everything And Rise’ The choice is ours and ours alone.
We fear going to the doctor when we are ill because of the diagnosis then we fear the diagnosis when we get it. We live in fear instead of living in acceptance. when we accept we can move forward and not stay stuck.
I haven’t posted for a while and sorry for that but I had not relised just how long it had been. Life just seems to move on and before you know it days, weeks have passed and unless you keep track nothing gets done.
So here is a brief update on whats been happening, well not much actually I have just been trying to manage my Fibromyalgia, anxiety and depression. This combination is definitely a hard combination to handle.
Daily challenges with Fibromyalgia are pain, joint swelling, fibro fog, dry eye, insomnia,fatigue. just to mention a few symptoms.
Daily challenges with depression are just trying to find a reason to carry on.
Daily challenges with anxiety are trying to stop your thoughts running away and stay focused on what you are doing. Also insomnia is a problem.
This is a very simple list and may not sound like its hard work to deal with but it is a full time job. Everyone says live life one day at a time but sometime that is just to much so some times it has to be hour by hour or even minute by minute.
All we can do is keep putting one foot in front of each other.
As I’m laying here awake worrying about why yesterday was so hard I’m reminded of what I said to my counselling ‘that you can only have a setback if you have already moved forward’.
Although yesterday was a hard and my anxiety was high as was my stress level, I did get through it. I may well have had a evening of tears and high stress levels I found a way though.
I had to remember to breath and remind myself ‘ this too shall pass’. It’s a very good thing to remember at that point anxiety takes over, that no matter how hard it seems’ this too shall pass’.
We need to remember whatever life throws at us we can survive it. We have a great track record of survival at the moment.
Well we are now half way through January and life carries on. I’m taking small steps forward in my recovery but have been hit by new health problems.
This life feels like a never ending merry-go-round. When I get over one thing something else hits. New medication often leads to new side effects and the circle continues.
How come we live in a world where we can put a person in space but we can’t find cures and treatments for many illnesses.
This is from AA it is the Serenity Prayer.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
When you have lived your life seeing things from one angle it is hard to come to terms with changing our viewpoint. You start to question your reality. As many of you who read my blog will know over the past year my world has been turned upside down. People that I thought would help me through this hell were no where to be seen but people I thought would have run from the situation and not looked back, stepped up and supported me.
So 2016 is done ! New year new outlook. I have had a lot of counselling and have become aware that my situation is not going to change unless I change it. This requires me to change the way I view things.
I now need to look at the world differently and I’m sure many of you are or will need to change your view point. Know you are not alone.
Did you know:
Fibro was first discovered in the 1820s.. Under the name of fibrosis.
1904 – Sir William Gowers coined the term fibrositis (literally meaning inflammation of fibers) to denote the tender points found in patients with muscular rheumatism. 1972 – Dr. Hugh Smythe laid the foundation for the modern definition of fibromyalgia by describing widespread pain and tender points.
It was renamed Fibromyalgia 1976
And it was in 1990 it had its own guidelines for diagnosing.
And the first treatment to try and combat the symptoms for it wasn’t until 2007.